Something New in the Neighborhood….

I felt change, the moment I remembered my own death…. wow… that was 50 years of not knowing what happened….

Two year anniversary is fast approaching for Margie…. She woke up Nov 7, 2017 after the Sutherland Springs, Texas massacre…. those souls, gave me back my life… their tragic loss, was my gain after 50 years of amnesia….

It’s changing in our home… for the good… the constant laughter, the companionship… something worth working for… he is dealing with his past….

I am putting mine to rest…. though I have to admit… it’s harder than it sounds….

Life has been for this human, do the best, seek answers and never quit questioning…. it got me this far….

The pot helps… it keeps everything from rushing in and overwhelming me…

I still look for good memories from that home, I have yet to find any…. Cruelty played out up till we left Mena in 2010… never to return…. never forget the expression on then sister in law Nancy, when as we started to pull away, Freda turned her back on us… she was afraid I would tell everyone, who she really is… she closed the door… but a few years later, the phone would ring, because of…. wait for it…… money……………………………… good christian…

Last contact, was the year I got my memories back and she contacted me on Thanksgiving of 2017 and wait for it….. you got it… money…………………………..

Once she realized I remembered my own death… she changed her phone number…. email…… not sure she moved that trailer… but, hey… it’s easy to find people, if you know how…. as for lil sis…. well, she’s going to lie to her grave… just like momma…. good christians…..

Anger, I will always have a corner of my heart that will hold the anger close to the good part of my heart… a reminder….

Trust is earned, not given…. and no one on this planet has a right to disrespect or abuse me…. as people will learn, upon our return to the mainland…. someday… who knows…..

I can’t say with complete knowledge that no depression at all… I think once the players have died… just as when Don did…. the memories will go back to sleep and life will go on…. and….

New memories will be made…..

Quiet this weekend, only a couple bangers….. Eyesight still wonky, mainly the right eye… the side of the head that took the trauma when I died in 67…..

As for mouth… those issues are impacting the major surgery from last year and I’m working to correct that, not fun… and the muscle relaxers help the facial spasms….. thanks Hilo VA for playing god…. hope denture comes next week…. tired of not being able to bite into anything solid….. you can only eat so much ice cream………………………..

I Remember…. Margie….

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