Fear of the Unknown… 52 years of Amnesia and counting….

When I told hubby that I had a story to tell about something that I have had nightmares about for 50 years… I got his attention…

The news was plastered with the 26 killed by the airman in Sutherland Springs, Texas… and Texas and Airman… was the trigger to remember my own death…

When you live in the fear mode all your life and you don’t know why… it takes a toll… not only on the body, but the brain and most of all… it wears at the soul…..

I asked… oh I asked… so many times I asked… did anything happen to me as a child… and always I was told….

No…..

The MRI was the nail in the cross for the family… they had lied… for so long… they had lied and they had forgotten the lies… so when confronted with the lies… they had no clue… and they gave themselves away…

The hyprocripsy of these people who know their god… must be the same one Trump and his base pray too… the ones that want slavery to be alive in America, by telling me what I can do with my body….. that fight is still ongoing, because women think they need men… honest you can’t fix stupid…

The fear… the not knowing… it was once all consuming…

Now I wait… and I hope… that the neurologist was right and that the only reason I don’t remember….

Because I don’t want too…..

I Remember… Margie…. someday she will remember…………………….

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